The greatest experience, the one which shakes a soul with hopes and fears, the results of which are never ending, and incidentally, the one which pays the biggest dividends, is to be found in the adoption of children.
--Anonymous

Monday, November 10, 2008

So Disappointed!

****UPDATE****
HEARD BACK FROM THE AGENCY. THE JUDGE HANDLING OUR CASE HAS ASKED FOR A REPORT FROM THE PGN. NOT SURE WHY, BUT THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS. WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE NOTIFIED WHEN HE RECEIVES THE REPORT AND HOPEFULLY HE WILL RULE TO ALLOW NOLA TO GO BACK WITH HER FOSTER FAMILY.
PLEASE PRAY SPECIFICALLY FOR THE REPORT TO BE COMPLETED QUICKLY AND THE JUDGE TO RULE FAVORABLY.
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After waiting anxiously since Tuesday last week for some news on our case, I found out yesterday, there is none. Our agency sent a representative to Guatemala to meet with our lawyer and others to try to get some answers for all of us in this situation. The man came home with NOTHING for us. I am beyond disappointed. I'm disgusted and frustrated and feeling a total lack of respect for that particular agency representative. I was given a list of questions that our agency is trying to get answers to and I fully expected some of them to be answered. Out of desperation, I sent a message to the director of our agency letting him know how very disappointed I am in the agency; in the apparent lack of concern for Nola and our family and in the apparent disregard of the urgency of the situation as a whole. This morning I received a phone call from the director. He apologized and said someone would get back with me today with anything they find out. He couldn't promise anything other than he (or someone from the agency) would call our lawyer today, ask him some questions, and let us know what he said. That's all I can ask.
I'll post with any news we receive.

The past three Mondays I've dedicated to prayer and fasting. After a friend from church made that commitment, I decided to do the same until we receive good news about Nola. Well yesterday morning I just didn't feel the dedication I should have felt. After getting in the car to take Maria to dance class, I turned on the radio and Lincoln Brewster's "Today Is The Day" came on. I felt like it was the boost I needed to get my day going in the direction it should have been in all along.

Today is the day, You have made,
I will rejoice and be glad in it,
Today is the day, You have made,
I will rejoice and be glad in it,
And I won't worry about tomorrow
I'm trusting in what You say,
Today is the day.

This morning, after getting my stuff in the car to deliver to the Ortho office, I turned on the radio and guess what song came on first thing? You're right, Lincoln Brewster's Today Is The Day.
Love those subtle messages!

11 comments:

Becky said...

I am so sorry to hear this. I was so hoping that you would get some answers this week. My heart is breaking for Nola and for your family. I will keep you all in our prayers.

Guatmama said...

I share your disappointment and my heart aches for your situation. I will continue to pray for this situation and others like it. Kudos to your for having your ears open to recieve God's hidden messages that the day holds.

Garland Family said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers often. I check frequently hoping for some good news. I can't even imagine how frustrated you are.
Melissa

Boo said...

I am praying for you and Nola. We've gotta get these girls home! Hopefully you'll get good news this week.

Eric and Michelle said...

Pam I am so sorry. I know for me nothing is harder than the UNKNOWNS. Thank you for sending your family pics. I am praying.

Will and Aileen said...

We're praying with you!

The gFamily said...

I am praying that PGN gives a quick and favorable report to the judge. I am also praying that the judge releases Nola's case so she can come home to her family!

God is giving you so much strength to fight for answers for your baby girl! Big hugs to you!
--Gretchen

Lisa said...

Pam, I'm really disappointed in the information you DIDN'T get. What was C_ _ _ _ doing all the time down in Guatemala???????????????
I'll be home Saturday

Ferrick said...

I love that song too! I just know in my spirit Pam that God will work this to His glory. "Walk not by how you feel but only what the truth reveals". You are a better person and a better disciple for this journey you are on, God has great rewards in store for you and Nola. Lots of love and hugs friend, Susie

Steph said...

This is definitely disheartening news. How can he come back with nothing? I just don't understand that. I continue to pray that PGN gets this report done quickly and the judge and give approval.

Alicia and Jonathan said...

This makes me want to scream! I wonder if our case needs a report from PGN too. Probably so, but as far as we know, we still have not made it to the judge!
I wish there was someone to advocate for all of us and bring us some answers.

Gordon Mote - Don't Miss the Glory